| Im in a weird spot? |
[Nov. 6th, 2006|07:39 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Drama blah | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  confused | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Plain White Ts | ] |
Poll #861590
Your feelings crush me
Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 0
In genral how many other people feel like there drowning in a bi-polar nightmare?
In genral how many of you are happy?
In general how many of you are sad?
In general how many of you are enraged?
In general how many of you actually give a fuck?
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| Something in this song is dragging me in |
[Nov. 6th, 2006|07:34 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Drama | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  thoughtful | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Jets to brazil | ] |
You're Having The Time Of My Life Lyrics
when you become a stranger again
how closed your eyes will be
narrowing me to three short feet
across a room of drunken revelry
youre having the time of my life
and i love you much too late
there are things id like
when you say my name to me
like some amusing piece of food between your teeth
then i will know that its completely over
wont you say my name to me
youre having the time of my life
and i think you got it right
its an envy making green
says your eyes only see me
if i had another last chance
and we met again for the first time
i would listen to your heart
i would start back at the start
there are things id like to say
so many things id like to change |
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| Vivid believes might be challenged wants in your dreams |
[Oct. 23rd, 2006|06:23 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Drama well kind of | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  im loved by you i think | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Rock Kills Kid- Dream | ] |
Its quiet here the blur of butterfly outlines in colors blink around the large bed
Her long black hair falls around her shoulders outlining the pale flesh
A long white lacey cami covers her thin tiny body
Her eyes blink under long lashes sprayed with glitter
High cheek bones graced with glitter and a lipstick kiss in the coner of her mouth
A porclien doll wrapped under her arms
Long lace wedding dress blue eyes covered in a slip of silk around her eyes
Cold hands held under the cool warmth of the girls thin shoulders
The room, a snowy white vista except for the light black cording around the white lace of the bed and the black ribon traced around the girls bent wrist
The rainbow outlines of butterflies blinking on the roof
A women in a long black coat with tight black pants and hair short red amd gold
And a man in a similar outfit with black curls and metal rings
enter the room the stand hand in hand by the door way
walking towards the bed and kissing both cheeks and eyelids of the girl
the man kneals down and kisses the girl as the women
brushes the hair from the girls face and kisses her forhead
They move away from the girl in a dark shadow.
(I wrote it about something you'd never understand.) |
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| This boy and girl who care too much... |
[Oct. 23rd, 2006|09:20 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | first period | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  they calm my soul and make me. | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Float on -Modest mouse | ] |
Red And Yellow
More of a orange
With pale glorious flesh
Hands so warm and soft
Black with dye
Twined like ocean waves
With pale glorious flesh
Hands so warm and soft
Girl who looks like a boy
Boy who looks like both on different days
With pale glorious flesh
Hands so warm and soft
Words that a soft and lite with a feminie touch
Words that a warming and rolled with the masculine rush
Hands that hold to me
When i twitch in the dark
Black and brown
Dead strait
With pale dirty flesh
Hands cold and rough as stone
A girl boy who is everything
and nothing to compare
With pale glorious flesh
Hands so warm and soft
Holding me
Holding me
to them...
i don't deserve them.. |
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| Unicorns fuck goats at least mine does.... |
[Oct. 17th, 2006|08:46 am] |
I didn’t think I would be happy today but I tottally am. Lizzy is adorably dressed up in her nurse garp and Emily is all grungy in the chas slash jack sweater that’s never been washed I am in need of a sweater sometimes moms and dads are just always right but oh well. ????Jacks disappeared should I be worried no the crazy lady just called her aggh nicks late oh dear he’s probally still at tylers in a puppy pile of cuteness I can see it Chad passed out in a chair or somewhere on the floor little drool dripping off his chin tyler in a semi ball on the bed blankets rolling off of him and nick in a sprawl on the other side of the bed hair a big mess ooops end of day dream nick just came in wow I hope he isn’t late because the cars fucking up wonder if he has to do push ups. My typing is totally slowed because I have handcuffs on one wrist and there pinching aggh weres axl with the keys rar… Hey I talked to Courteny love this morning we aren’t arguing. Last night was cute other then me and ben getting into a big fight nick was over and Jackie made dinner for once big miricale and dad piffted for awahile mom was at a meeting for some time. We colored with nick did some stuff im not at liberty to say because the government would be angry hehe it was fun jac and nic were like bro and sis and micheala kept running around and pouncing on me I let her punch me in the face a couple times before nic came over and then walked around with blood all over my face. I even had it on my hands and I waved at a person when I was getting the mail and they got scared… It was hilarious leaned over a rail and watched the blood drip onto the rocks I got very hungry…. Smiles I love you all will talk again ltr. |
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| Im not angry .... uhhh yes you are your an angry angry lil boy girl.... huh |
[Oct. 16th, 2006|09:39 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | first period | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  creative | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | KoRn Clown... Yeahhh | ] |
the worlds telling me im angry
the world being everyone
am i that angry?
on a side note ben doesn't make me calm anymore
weird i know but i saw him this weekend
and felt nothing
Nick and emily make me calm....
Boy do i love them....
Yeahhhh matt and me aren't arguing |
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| The theme in me right now |
[Oct. 9th, 2006|01:14 pm] |
Your Heart Is An Empty Room Lyrics
Burn it down till the embers smoke on the ground
And start new when your heart is an empty room
With walls of the deepest blue
Home's face: how it ages when you're away
Spring blooms and you find the love that's true
But you don't know what now to do
Cause the chase is all you know
And she stopped running months ago
And all you see
Is where else you could be
When you're at home
Out on the street
Are so many possibilities
To not be alone
The flames and smoke climbed out of every window
And disappeared with everything that you held dear
And you shed not a single tear for the things that you didn't need
'Cause you knew you were finally free
'Cause all you see is where else you could be when you're at home
Out on the street are so many possibilities to not be alone
And all you see is where else you could be
When you're at home
There on the street are so many possibilities to not be alone |
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| I was just a ghost by your side you never noticed me |
[Oct. 9th, 2006|12:45 pm] |
Im sitting next to you
I hung off of her
at lunch
because
from that
angle i could
look at you
and hide it.
Im sitting next to you
I have the music up real loud
all day
because
at this decible
i can just
glance at
you with the music.
Im sitting next to you
In a short skirt
cause i wanted you to
see the bruises
that i got
when i jumped
off the roof
this weekend
Im sitting next to you
not talking
because im scared
i lost my chance.
So im sitting next to you
waiting for you
to make an action. |
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| This girl i know... with the name of LA Em |
[Oct. 9th, 2006|09:42 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | School | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | im putting myself together now | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Date Rape Sublime | ] |
This girl
shes a gift
she holds me when i have
nobody
when my boy goes the way
away from me
she puts me together
willing to write in my name
she dresses me when im in rags
she drugs me when i need something
to stop a murder of a detox
she gives me
the shelter of
a wing
of a kiss
wether it be on the
mouth one day
for now its on the cheek
why did god give her to
someone so undeserving like me.... |
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| poem about a news article about the three dead babies who died from heparin |
[Oct. 6th, 2006|09:03 am] |
Thin and Weak
We left you alone in a room
We thought you would be safe
Warm and clean
Straight from the womb.
One Two Three
You were are gift God’s little angel.
Mommy held you once in tired arms.
Daddy kissed your little fingers and toes.
One Two Three
It was a normal night.
Daddy watched you tucked in.
Left you in her care.
We believed you were safe.
Are little bundle in pink.
So daddy kissed you good night.
And two mommy he went to meet.
One Two Three.
And while they dined on hospital Jell-O.
The Dawn was over thrown.
But the night.
Nurse.
One Two Three
Only five days with you
Our bundle of joy.
Nothing to awake to on the fifth.
One Two Three
You body thinned from the mislead gift.
Medication in the dose made for a man.
Not our little girl
Not the needles mark.
One Two Three
No amount of counsel will
Numb the loss.
Of our little girl in pink.
She was blessed by God.
But nothing did stop her from becoming.
A third little soul lost.
ONE TWO THREE. |
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